I find while I want to create and make things, I keep getting sucked into the computer looking at other blogs for ideas. I have plenty of ideas myself but it is implementing them I find difficult. I made two cards yesterday that I am half impressed with. I won’t throw them away and waste them but I am not 100% pleased with them.
My Ma is constantly telling me to quit second guessing myself. It drives me crazy to have all of these great ideas without the skill to bring them to life. I suppose this is part of the process. Today it is on my mind to create a notebook using perfect binding. I have watched a few videos on how to do it and I feel confident that I can pull it off. My goal is to mix vintage with modern on all of my products and now seems to be the perfect time to begin trying to infuse these designs. As I write (type), I question myself because this crafting is a challenge for me. One that I will learn from but I question why I chose to start this journey. Writing is natural for me and I wonder if I should have ventured into something more along those lines.
No turning back now. In order to build my confidence, I must practice and do my best to stay away from this damn laptop! I have an encouraging support system who believes in me so I need to dig deep and pull out that hidden ego. I am going to post pictures of today’s notebook process only for purposes of seeing growth in my attempts. All of the items I use to practice with will be given as gifts so as not to waste. I hope they treasure the gifts and not throw them away, lol
After this dries I will cut the cardstock down to the size of the paper inside my notebook. I used plain white copy paper as my paper filling. I tried my hand at scoring the cardstock to form a flat bound area. It is suggested to score on each side of the folds of your paper and then another 1/4 inch on each side of those scored marks. I didn’t score the two extra which resulted in my front page separating from the bind. I did my best at covering this up by adding a piece of cardstock, baby blue, to the inside panel. I should have waited to use the scrap paper that will be cut from the cover cardstock but I got impatient and did not allow myself the time to think it through.
Crafting is a lot of trial and error resulting in waste. I do not like to waste paper. I am too much of a perfectionist and this plus my impatience will ruin my designs if I am not careful. I have stepped away and given myself a break. I realize I am being ultra hard on myself but I can’t help but be when I don’t like what I have made. I am struggling with self-doubt.
What do you do when you do not like what you have made? How do you get over self-doubt?