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This topic is a necessary one for me to have. All too often I allow my goals to go by the waste side. Let’s use this month’s goals for example. Today is the ninth day of the month and I have already failed miserably at my biggest goal.
Can I redeem myself?
Which goal, you ask? My no spend September goal. I wasn’t going to mention this failure because it is embarrassing but I am only human. On the third, I ordered an epherema package off Instagram. I “couldn’t” pass it up! It was a great deal. Honestly, it felt like I was breaking a rule and I was actually being sneaky about it. Then … on the seventh day, Tuesday Morning was calling my name. As soon as I left work I headed over there with the 50 dollars I had just earned. I told myself to only get what I must have and only if it were on sale. Well, guess what??? It was delivery day for them and obviously for all of the craft supplies. I had arms full of products before remembering I had a budget. I went through my pile and selected the amount for what I had in my pocket. Again it felt as though I was breaking a rule.
I have felt ashamed of these two purchases since making them. Yesterday I received a 50% off one full priced item at our local craft store and I resisted the temptation because I realized it is only me that it effects. My original reason for setting this goal was to see what I needed to assist me in making items for sale. I’ve noticed that I have begun buying things that I want making it difficult to use for items to sell. Ultimately I’ve learned that I may have a shopping problem.
The excitement I felt sneaking to buy these things was crazy. Number one I am the one who set this as a goal so this is only deceiving myself. I felt a high driving to Tuesday Morning the day I went shopping!! Perhaps this has replaced my addiction to alcohol. It is possible and likely.
Secondly, why set a goal and not push myself to achieve it? No one has control over my finances so it is up to me to monitor them and that is exactly what I need to be doing. Because of this spending, I will have to dip into my saving to pay our water bill. Yes, I can put the money back next week but that isn’t the point yet that is what stays at the back of my mind making it ok.
It is time to really evaluate my goals and the reason behind them. It feels so good to have admitted my fault instead of pretending it didn’t happen. Acknowledging this will, in turn, help me to fix it. We learn from our mistakes and while this wasn’t a mistake per say, it was a lesson learned. As far as the other goals go, I have stuck to cutting off work at 9 (ish), I have unplugged on Sundays except for yesterday I looked around on Instagram a little and I am in the process of finishing a custom ordered travel notebook. I may have set this goal way too high but I am doing as best I can.
I refuse to look at this month as a failure rather a lesson. I have learned that I truly need to evaluate my reasons behind my goals. When setting them I didn’t realize how extreme, for me, they were. I need to start smaller. With that being said, I still have the rest of the month to get on track and I plan to do exactly that.!!
Dylusions stamp and stencil set
Heidi Swapp family embellishment kit
Heidi Swapp Minc stencil
Memory Keepers 1-2-3 punch
Crate Paper pad
American Crafts epherema kit
Carta Bella enamel stickers
P.S. I ended up making $7 over what I needed for the water bill at work today. By the grace of God because it was an unusually large sum of money to have made on a short shift. I will still hold myself accountable and try harder for the remainder of the month.
*featured picture – my unfinished artwork